i would have stayed up with you all night

Remember when this song came out?  Five years ago, now, right?  I first heard it those years ago, but it didn't have any personal meaning to me.  Then I heard this song around the time when my last grandparent died.  It was also on that episode of Scrubs where those patients die from rabies due to those organ transplants.  I forget exactly what happened in this episode but I remember watching it after the passing of my grandparent, and maybe hearing this song triggers that memory, and made me cry.


What am I saying, 'maybe'.  It DOES.  I cried just now when I played this song to check the quality before I blogged about it.  I only have to hear that chorus once and I well up.  I've seen people die (in a clinical setting) and the feeling that I feel each time it happens does not lessen with each time.  It stays the same, but I deal with it a little better.  It just goes to show me, in some small and sad way, that life is not a rehearsal for something that will happen later, and that no matter how hard we try sometimes, we can't save everyone.

where did I go wrong?

I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness

and I would have stayed up with you all night

had I known how to save a life